Thank You Mum

I remember everything. The pains, the struggles, the frustrations that you had to endure for my sake.
Its not that I don't love you, no, not at all. I love you so deeply and so strongly that there is no normal and physical way for me to express my love.

I wish I can run and hug you whenever I see  you but all I can manage is a simple smile. I want to tell you all the things I love about you. I want to cry on your laps again. I want you to tell me stories again. I wanna be  your little boy again.

You know me like the palm of your hands. When you look at me, I never miss your thoughts hidden so carefully in your eyes. The events of my birth and struggles of my childhood,  your little boy then is now a Man. I have promised to pacify you with all my love and all my talents. I want to write a new chapter in our lives. It will be the creation of our hopes and dreams.

I want you to see the world in a new light  so different from the one we are used to. I want to see that smile you had when I first walked and talked. The excitement and desire and hopes of our paradise.

It is my sacred duty to ensure your well being now. When I was still naive, I resented  you for being poor. I bought the propaganda  of our society to marginalize and label people who are different from us. For this sin, I am deeply sorry.

With  your gift of focus and my power of imagination, I have already created our future like we discussed. I am laying the foundations now so please wait for me. I feel  your love right here. The over hundred miles separating us hasn't reduced your love intensity.

For the first time, I am truly happy!  I won the battle against myself. Mum, I am so proud of you. Do you know that I become pumped up with new energy when I remember those days? I am a new man now. You  are my inspiration  and role model. I am already  successful because I am as  happy as you are!

But there is more. I just realized that I am classified as a gifted person. I now understand my behavior and character. Now that I know why I am the way I am, I have accepted myself and that's why I am happy.

How do I explain to people that because I have an unusually high IQ, I have low EQ?
I am now learning to love my weirdness.  Mum, no matter how I think about it, I believe you are the best.

I love you with  every color I can imagine, I love you more than the multiverse my mind can conjure. You are the foundation of my reality and a touch light to my long dark journey of freedom  and creativity

You always wished me luck. It makes me remember the times that you used carry me at  your back for Gold Searching at the river banks. I was 2 years old but I remember. I cant forget.

Thank you so much my Love.

Your son,
AMfree